It's so weird being back in the hum-drum of everyday life again after spending 3 weeks inbetween 2 small seaside towns (one's more like a village than a town, but hey), with family and sun. It's always such a whirlwind thought to have your annual holiday crammer together with the festivities of Christmas and New Year and then somewhere in between you just want to also lie back and read a book, or go for a long walk on the beach. The Europeans have it much better planned with their main holiday being July - Sept and then Dec/Jan is all about the silly season. Makes a lot more sense splitting these things up.
After the rough year we'd all just gone through, I decided to ignore the whole New Year's Eve hooha. Yup. No silly hats or crackers for me (however, I did hit the champagne quite hard - but that's not just saved for NY...so it doesn't count). As I was with family, I could not completely ignore it (like I wanted to by hitting the sack with a good book around 8 pm....), so instead, we went out for a very civilised dinner and I made sure we were home before the revellers whipped out anything resembling a party streamer. Not to sound too Scroogey, but I just wasn't up to the whole forced merriment and anticipation that inevitably is a disappointment like a wet, wilted balloon after all the helium's gone out of it (that actually pretty much describes how I felt this NY). I tried instead to pretend it was just another summer's evening (with the obligatory NY's Eve rain) and had a lovely meal and hung out with my loved ones. It suited me just fine. They did not, however allow me to skulk off to bed the minute we got home - but the minute 12 struck, it was a kiss here, a kiss there and I was out of there and into my bed.
2010 hit me & my family with a sucker punch that truly knocked the wind out of all of us. On top of the family drama, I also chose 2010 to be the year left my workplace, moved house, moved out of my beloved city bowl to a suburb that still leaves me confused (after 11 months I still have to forcefully override my little car to not drive towards the mountain and the city, and instead take the off-ramp away from it) and basically spin around in one confused circle.
Needless to say, I didn't have much left in me to celebrate the onset of a new year. Although I couldn't wait to kiss 2010 goodbye, experience has also left me a bit apprehensive for each new year. I just hope that it's better.
I wish for health, love, clarity, joy, fun, and basically good things. Abundance of all of these! I wish for my higher self to make all my decisions for me and for my spirit to rejoice each day, knowing it's being nourished and cared for. I wish for angels to walk by my side and by my loved ones to keep us all safe and well. I wish to hear my inner voice every day and for the courage to follow it.
Good luck to all of us.
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